A Fabulous World

I figured I would have to make a post about this not only to make it official, but also to remind myself that I decided to do this.


This journal is friends only from now on.




Fo' real this time.



Peace. Love. Happiness.

I am done with finals.

It's PARTY TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


WHowantstogetwasted?????


haha

GAAAAHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOOOOOOVEE LIFEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Acércate que a lo mejor
no te das cuenta que mi amor
no es para siempre
porque hay noches que se apagan cuando duermes
díselo a tu corazón
no habrá mas fuente de dolor
no digas que no pienso en ti
no hago otra cosa que pensar
acércate un poco más
no tengas miedo a la verdad

que hay cuando llegue la mañana y salga el sol
tú volverás a mi lado y gano yo
y ahora vete, vete, vete, vete
vete y pásatelo bien, por nosotros dos

no, corazón

te lo agradezco pero no
te lo agradezco mira niña pero no
yo ya logré dejarte aparte
no hago otra cosa que olvidarte
te lo agradezco pero no
te lo agradezco mira niña pero no
te lo agradezco corazón

pero no, tú sabes bien que
Acércate un poco más
no ves que el tiempo se nos va
da rienda suelta a lo que sientes
si no lo haces mala suerte
porque al final, si no lo ves
puede que no me escuches, pero lo diré
que hay, cuando salga el sol y llegue la mañana
yo volveré a tu lado, a tu lado con más ganas

y ahora, vete, vete, vete, vete

vete y pásatelo bien, por los dos

te lo agradezco pero no
te lo agradezco mira niño pero no
yo ya logré dejarte aparte
no hago otra cosa que olvidarte
te lo agradezco pero no
te lo agradezco mira niño pero no
yo ya logré dejarte aparte
no hago otra cosa que olvidarte

tengo conciencia del daño que te hice
pero al mismo tiempo no me siento responsable
de lo que pudiste pensar que fue coraje
no fue nada más que el miedo, miedo

te lo agradezco pero no
te lo agradezco mira niño pero no
yo ya logré dejarte aparte
no hago otra cosa que olvidarte
te lo agradezco pero no
te lo agradezco mira niña pero no
yo ya logré dejarte aparte
no hago otra cosa que olvidarte

no hago otra cosa que olvidarte corazón
por la mañana temprano y luego en las tarde, en la noche

cuando estoy en el vacilón,
no puedo nada más que olvidarte, corazón
te lo agradezco
te lo agradezco pero no
te lo agradezco mira niño pero no
yo ya logré dejarte aparte
no hago otra cosa que olvidarte

te lo agradezco pero no
ya te he dejado aparte
ahora ya no necesito más de ti
yo ya logré dejarte aparte
ya estoy así estoy bien corazón no me vale
que me vengas así llorando, una vez más

te lo agradezco
tus ojos lindos, tu cuerpo bello,
lo siento niña pero no
al lado mío siempre corazón,
cuando salga el sol, yo no estaré ahí,
ahora vete, vete, vete al vacilón.

I am still tired.

Friday was one of the best days in this entire semester.


I am still tired though. I cooked Peruvian food for 23984729374938274 people and it was amazing! But, I'm still tired.

I finally talked to Daniel. His life seems waaaaaaaaaaaay more interesting than mine, especially in the love department. haha

I didn't go to a friend's party. B-day, too. Hope she understands.. :/

I have realized I am waaaay less hispanic that I thought I was. Or rather, I am more Americanized than I thought I was.

I have Inca Kola in my room! And it's funny that I actually understand why they call it "the Golden Kola" haha.

I can't stay awake to save my life. I have slept 9 hours for two days. I still can't stay awake.


You were right, Hee. Espresso, here I come. Like, seriously!


This decaf thing isn't doing it for me.


*YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWN*

I kid you not when I say I am CANT STOP SHAKING right now. I am wide awake. And, I have nothing MAJOR due tomorrow. BUT

I have to read for physics (for tomorrow or rather today),
I have a presentation due Tuesday (proposal),
a 9-10 pg. paper due Wednesday,
a problem set for multivariable due Tuesday
a problem set for multivariable due Thursday
a problem sets for physics on Wednesday,
a physics report for Thursday
a problem set for physics due Monday or TODAY(extra)
a reading due for History today
a reading due for History Wed.
a reading due for History Fri.

(btw, this is my usual routine EVERY WEEK except the paper and the presentation)

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


And, I haven't drank coffee!


AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I'm having a break-down/panic attack/hyperventilation moment RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!


FULL EXPLOSION COUNTDOWNNNNNNNNNN...............3..................2............1...

You know it's going to be a fun day when you had about 3.5 hours of sleep on and off in the library couch and you froze your ass off the entire sleeping time.

I'm not behind, I'm just freaked out. I need to get this damn paper done, like NOW, so that I can get started on other things that are due around the same time. Actually, not get started, but FINISH THEM ALREADY. AND, I need to study for FINALS! AHHHH!!!!!!!!


Oh yeah, and my caffeine rehab lasted about 2-3 days? Maybe? While on rehab, I was drinking decaf, ya know, just to let go of the caffeine gradually.




I hate coffee.


Hee, I called you yesterday.



Hmph. I hate that it's already Friday. I'm supposed to be relaxing today. I'm going to be too stressed out to relax...

I'm really sad about V. Tech. We should really count our blessings and appreciate life a little more. My prayers are with them. I hope everyone else keeps them in their prayers.

:(

Today was a rough day...




In the end, however, I am thankful for what God has given me.

I can't drink coffee without shaking and having goosebumps afterwards.








In other words, I am f*cked.






Hm, so how am I supposed to stay up exactly?

It's time for another breakdown.


Was about time really.




Who wants to be my pillow of comfort?















I've noticed it's been A WHILE since I've actually done something for fun that I've actually planned/fit in my schedule. I never really realized how important it is to RELAX and HAVE FUN in ORDER TO RELAX.


I think I will go to the library and get myself a movie, some popcorn and FORCE MYSELF to watch it and HAVE FUN FOR ONCE!!!!!!!!


I seriously think it will help me.




Like, really.

So, I totally just got yelled at by some guy who was also in the stacks. I swear I thought I was the only soul in there today. His look was priceless - I felt chills running down my spine. He almost murdered me with his look. Here's how it happened.

I was learning about how images are created with plane mirrors and rays of light and such, and then my cousin calls me and we start catching up and chit-chatting as we always do. Start cracking jokes and laughing our asses off and what not. Then, suddenly this dude comes up to where I'm sitting and SHUSSSES me with a LOUD "shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh", with his finger raised to his mouth. All the while, he's glaring at me with his murderous look. I was never more scared in my whole life. Then, he leaves. I totally hang up. And, I sat there, feeling scared, wondering what just happened. Like I said, I swear I thought I was the only soul in that floor.

lol, 'twas a good laugh. Later, I saw him and I apologized BIG TIME, and he was TOTALLY all cool about it. He shrugged it off, and with a tender smile said, "Oh, that's cool. Don't worry 'bout it."


?????




In other news, remember those mugs of coffee I drink all the time? Well I googled it's not just coffee I drink, it's actually espresso/cappuccino I'VE BEEN DRINKING ALL ALONG. Wahahahahahahhaha.



Uh....

So, lately, I've been dead, and I mean DEAD tired. It could be a lot of things.

I've stopped eating all that much because I'm not usually hungry and because I'm stressed.

I don't know if they ran out of soy milk, but I haven't been getting my fix lately, and I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT SOY MILK!! I feel so incomplete. Really. I am not joking at all.

I have been sleeping at around 2 am, and I usually sleep at 1 am. Hey, it COULD be a factor, who knows?

That aerobics class is taking out all the minimal energy I have left in my body every Tues/Thurs.

The 2-3 HUGE MUGS of coffee I drink everyday aren't waking me up anymore.

I can only function if I sleep 6-7 hours at night, and if I went to sleep past 2 am, I HAVE TO take a nap at around 3 pm in the library, even if I got the 7 hours of sleep.

I hope I improve, somehow.

I really don't like this trend at all. I don't like where this is going.

Oh, and I don't have a cold, but I do sometimes have a runny nose, TOTALLY OUT OF NOWHERE, like in the middle of class! Could it be allergies? Weird, because I have none.

I also need to increase my intake of fruits. I only eat like 2 or 3 nowadays.






I dunno, maybe I need an energy pill or something.

Can I just say that I hate life?


I can? OK, good because guess what!




I HATE LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!






GUH!!!!!!!!!!!

I love how in my physics book, in order to describe the characteristics of electromagnetic waves (how magnetic fields and electric fields oscillate), they somehow used the analogy of a rose and its thorns.


Also, my eyes are really, really hurting. I want lasik.

Also, I cried today and my face hasn't stopped hurting because I didn't wipe my tears and all the salt is still irritating my face.

Also, everyone thinks I'm a freshman. And, I mean EVERYONE I randomly meet. It's probably because I haven't one speck of make up on my face, ever!



Hee, I called you.


At Grady, I got to see real FBI. I thought that was pretty cool. They totally stood out, too.



Hehe. FBI.

Dear Hee,

I called you twice yesterday. I called you the second I finished taking my last physics exam. We need to talk and catch up. Lots and lots of things have been going on, especially, me freaking out about everything and being super stressed for no reason. I am less stressed, but still stressed nonetheless. If you would be a dear and tell me exactly what time to call you , I think life would rock.

Love,

fab

If physics was a disease, I'd totally be throwing it up right now.



UGHHH, physics makes me siiiick. I can't look at it anymore, I CAN'T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



In another light, let's try to stay positive. Let's see...positive thing about today? Instrumental class was cancelled. That class needs to die and grant me the A. lol

Also, I spilled my coffee all over the AC thing today, IN THE LIBRARY. IN FRONT OF TWO OTEHR GIRLS!!!!

And, yes, that was fun.



I should just stop doing physics and read history.



Also, I quit facebook again. I think it's corrupting our youth.



I WANT MY MOMMY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



I'm pissed at dad, but what else is new?



I'm irritated. Can you tell?

I got a postcard today from Ben who is in Greece!!!!!

I feel special.

I am sick of looking at physics.

Hm. Maybe I should read a little bit of history.














I want to write a book.




I want to go to Peru.


The other day at the ER, we got a man that was found unconscious on the floor for 3 days and had ulcers all over his body. They did a folie (sp) on him to warm him up. Eeekk...folies. He was v. much in pain.


I saw His Holiness the Dalai Lama the other day. He was just walkin' around and he just happened to pass by me. I think I will TOTALLY have time my last semester to attend one of his lectures.


Why do Asian guys give each other massages in the library, in public? Kind of gay, if you ask me. Nothing wrong with that I guess........


Haha. Jerry Springer came to our school the other day. Jerry Springer. Ughhhh, I hate that show, with a passion.



I can't live without soy milk either. Coffee and soy milk complete me.



I always eat cereal with my meals. Allllllllllwaaaayssss. Is that weird? It's always cheerios, too. With soy milk.




Anything else that can be random to add in here? I KNOW! BARNELA BARNELA BARNELA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!





The other day I read some physics in Spanish. It was totally the awesomest thing in life.



I really, really, really want to meet Paul Farmer, especially since he is coming here in like a month. GAaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh!!



So, people are very polite here and have very good manners. In fact, some people are so well-mannered they think it's bad manners to eat your pizza without a fork. They also think it's bad manners to mix your food together. My conclusion: I have no manners.



Life is just dandy.